I watched you scope the room

Felt our gaze graze for an instant

As you passed over to hide your feelings

Or do you loathe me that much?

This heated atmosphere is filled with such tension

I can only deduce what’s leaking from your head

Am I the solitary heart in this sequence of diversion?

Or do I merely service your bed?

All these fickle judgment and demands

Concluding my days with regrets

Losing all my poise just to earth my secrets

And yet you’re far from what I covet

Each moment passing drives me further astray

And I can sense your frustration

But I won’t divulge what I can’t say

writing again i guess. sucks, but getting back in the swing of things. So today was interesting, got up drove to school, then left cause i hate it sooo much. Picked up Healz and shopped, finding some interesting presents (sauna exercise jumpsuit anyone?), and having a grand ol’ time, cause that girl is seriously the greatest. Then brought Healz to suprise LFL(Little Fucker Lizzie), cause i know how sweet it would be for me. lol. After which we did a little more shopping, but this time rocked out in shop n spend, buying some dough products. Peaced back to my crib where we were joined by my sister JK (aka Jen Kolenski) a G*rod fav; we made a surplus of cookies, in many different varietys, only took 3 hours +. JK and I made some sweet candy cane type ones from the box, as healey whipped out her domestic cooking skills with some homemade dough and the essence of christmas cutters. “traveled” to the Rod for what can only be put as a socially awkward chaotic scene, but all the same, had a good time hittin up all the tables. Which now leads me back here, were i have done absolutly nothing for the past 2 hours (what else is new) and am def. not sleeping tonight, seeing as how a popped my magic. So yeah, hw is in the near future, followed by a shit day. ahha. whatever, ive been slacking so bad, and yes i regret it baddd but what can ya do. I’m going to continue with my presciption tomorrow, hopefully not to late to pick this quarter back up. damn me, and my authority problem! ok i guess i have to go do this school crap.

ps I LOVE the CD <3 good choice, i’m impressed with the present skills.